Brain injury life is hard. Would not recommend

Day 382: Wednesday 20th March 2019

Time for some real honest talk. Ever since I hit a year with my brain injury a couple of weeks ago I’ve been finding things real tough emotionally.⁣

I am so grateful for the progress I’ve made but I want more and the pace of recovery is getting to me. I’ve accepted that I can’t have my old life back and I’m trying to take where I am and grow from there but man, this is so hard. ⁣

I have lots of ways to deal with the pain my brain gives me but when it gets really bad it gets on my emotions and that’s where I am now. ⁣

I keep searching for answers, I try new things, I try to be kind to myself and know that I have the strength to keep going because I’ve got this far. I want more out of my life, I want to have a life that makes me feel fulfilled but when I try to do more and I get hit with more pain and all the rest, it’s hard.

I have all the motivation in the world to get better but I feel like something Is holding me back.

It’s my brain. ⁣

It scares me to think that I really don’t know what my future holds. I don’t know how far my recovery will take me, if I’ll get to lead a life where I can wake up and know that I can do whatever I want without my brain telling me I can’t.⁣

But I know I have to concentrate on me and on the here and now. I‘m taking some time off my social media accounts where I share my recovery journey. It might be a few days, maybe a week or longer. I don’t know. ⁣

Please know that I’m so grateful for all your love and support.

✨ Keep sparkling one day at a time! ✨

Much love and healing vibes,

AJ x